#55
“I. Jae-jin, I have no intention of returning your memory.”
He grinds his teeth so hard it seems like they’ll break, growling.
Just hearing that eerie voice gave me goosebumps.
“Still don’t care? Even so, you say guiding is good?”
“No, don’t do that…”
“Just give up. That head with holes in it, I’m too scared to touch it. I’d rather just shoot a gun at it.”
“Why. Seo Eui-woo, you’re an S-class Esper. There’s nothing you can’t do. Why, you’re not even pretending to try, but just a little effort, even just a show of sincerity would be fine…”
“Yeah. Next time, stake something other than Kwon Jae-jin’s life. Then I’ll lose on purpose.”
Eui-woo barely let go of Jae-jin and stepped back with desperate patience.
With eyes that looked like he’d be mercilessly guiding at any moment, acting like he’d lost his mind, wanting, craving, yet Eui-woo was absurdly resolute.
He was persistent, powerful, and merciless. He didn’t know how to give up, and he didn’t know how to compromise. He was remarkable… truly remarkable.
“Hah.”
A sigh filled with various emotions escaped from Jae-jin’s mouth.
Guiding was the only card Jae-jin could play against Eui-woo, and even that had become useless.
“Haha… I understand. Let’s not guide… anymore.”
Could I really never go against Eui-woo?
Would Jae-jin have to live the rest of his life like this, just conforming to his will?
Even after losing his family and having all his memories taken away, should he still go over to Eui-woo, saying there was no other choice?
Listening to everything he wanted, doing what he wants, giving up…
Like that…
“Jae-jin, I’m sorry for getting angry. But right now, I was too excited and couldn’t help it. You’re not hurt, right? I almost broke your arm… Your head, is the place you hit okay? I’ll bring the healing factor.”
Eui-woo left the bed. Even though he could use his ability to bring it, he deliberately left, showing how full of excitement he was.
Jae-jin looked at Eui-woo’s back with a desolate gaze and moved his hand absent-mindedly as if hypnotized.
I don’t know what I was thinking.
He unbuttoned his pants and threw off all his obstructing clothes, together with his briefs, spreading his legs bare. Driven by a sense of self-destruction and self-contempt, Jae-jin clutch at his own thing.
Shaking his wrist trying to force an erection, he felt the piercing gaze of the horrified Eui-woo.
Jae-jin spoke to himself with an expressionless face, not even laughing.
“It’s not guiding. It’s masturbating.”
“What…?”
“Why. Can’t I do this too? Seo Eui-woo, don’t you do it every day saying you can’t stand it. I’m going to masturbate too.”
With droopy eyes, Jae-jin grasped his center with both hands and rubbed rapidly. Just as Eui-woo said, nothing, really nothing felt good. Though he forced his cock to stand, he didn’t know if he could finish.
Jae-jin called his name.
“Eui-woo. Eui-woo. Ah, huh, Seo Eui-woo. Fuck, bastard… Ah, ah.”
It felt disgusting, terrible, he wanted to finish quickly.
Instead of doing this stupid thing, he wanted to tangle with Eui-woo.
Kissing each other, touching here and there, feeling good, getting stuffed so full with his thing that his insides felt packed tight, thrusting deep inside until he climaxed.
Jae-jin slid one hand to the inside of his thigh. Spreading his legs wider, he rubbed the closed hole with his fingertips.
So lost he didn’t even feel ashamed. He continued shaking his cock while rubbing the wrinkled part that had shrunk from disuse.
“Haa, ugh, I hate this…”
“…”
Eui-woo looked at Jae-jin as if seeing the unbelievable. Jae-jin, who had drawn a line and stepped back, rejecting him, was now inserting fingers into his own ass. Already incredibly aroused, Eui-woo was nearly out of his mind.
From his neck to his face, his skin turned red, and the whites of his gray eyes were bloodshot. His veins stood up all over his body. His heart pounded as if it would burst, and his lower part felt like it would break apart.
The cock that had been stiff inside his pants was so swollen it hurt, almost ready to tear through the fabric.
“What are you trying to do right now?”
Unable to hold back, Eui-woo grit his teeth and fiercely climbed onto the bed where Jae-jin lay.
Jae-jin was now pushing a finger inside himself. He bent his knuckles to touch the delicate mucous membrane within the red, slightly open hole. The tender wrinkles around his pink hole twitched every time Jae-jin’s finger moved.
“You can see, ugh, can’t you? I’m masturbating, masturbating.”
“So why! Why are you doing this to me?”
Seo Eui-woo yanked Jae-jin’s arm up. His fingers slipped out from inside, and the hole closed back up. Grabbing both of the arms that had been touching himself, Eui-woo crossed them and pinned them down.
“You think I’m holding back guiding, this horrific thing, just out of stubbornness? You think I’m doing this to prove something?”
“What, prove what.”
“My purpose! My will! My decision! You still think I want guiding from you? You think the reason I’m desperately keeping you alive is to exploit guiding?”
“…”
“It’s not just about guiding. That’s not my goal…”
Eui-woo collapsed to his knees in front of Jae-jin, burying his face in his chest and hugging his waist. He was trembling, fervently exploring and feeling Jae-jin’s body, skin, touching everything like he was insufficient. Even as he groped roughly, it wasn’t enough, and he continued to swallow his dry saliva.
“I, I need Kwon Jae-jin. But you don’t get it.”
“No, I know, but…”
“Ugh, fuck, Kwon Jae-jin, just shut that mouth! How can someone who knows act like this? Don’t open it. You’re driving me crazy wanting to kiss it, just shut it!”
Eui-woo touched Jae-jin as if he were wounded, panting like a person with a bullet wound. He swept his palm all over his body, feeling every bit with desperation, yet looked tormented, deeply furrowed eyebrows, groaning in distress.
“If I don’t desperately hold myself back like this, Kwon Jae-jin, you’ll resent me forever. Even though it wasn’t me who erased your memory, you’ll treat me as if I did!”
“…”
“Even if you don’t show it outwardly, you’ll rot inside. Associating me with the Eui-woo who erased your memory…! You think I don’t know? Do you think I’m completely clueless?”
“…”
“So, stop your nonsense, and look straight at me. See how… desperately, how I am trying to prove it.”
Eui-woo’s jaw trembled.
He looked like he wanted to faint.
If he lost consciousness and collapsed, he wouldn’t have to endure these brutal and blood-curdling impulses.
Eui-woo clenched his fist tightly. If he opened his hand, he would continue to touch Jae-jin’s body. He wanted to crush and shove his cock into that hole right away.
He wanted to rip the hole and push mercilessly without a care, focusing on guiding day and night.
“I won’t do guiding.”
Eui-woo, crazed, grabbed Jae-jin’s hand and dragged him off the bed. He pulled Jae-jin forcefully, making sure he was completely out of bed and dragging him by the arm out of the bedroom with large strides.
Jae-jin was dragged along in the direction Eui-woo was heading. Like a dog on a leash.
“Seo Eui-woo! What, what…!”
Startled, Jae-jin shouted.
It was impossible not to be surprised, being dragged completely naked.
He had no idea where Eui-woo was going or what he intended to do to him.
“If I wanted, I could guide at any time. Right now, even! I know I can, but I won’t.”
“Where are you taking me? Why are you suddenly acting like this?”
“You know as well as I do. I could do anything. Handcuff you, erase your memory to make you a guiding slave? Haha! I could’ve done that. Or, just deleting that memory of us falling out. Then there wouldn’t have been any of this bullshit, and everything would be normal, right? But, as you see, I didn’t do anything!”
“Seo Eui-woo!”
“Jae-jin, you must trust me now. And I will trust you too. We will be that kind of relationship from now on. Guiding? Guiding is great, but… Not for now.”
Eui-woo kicked the bathroom door hard. The thick and heavy door nearly fell off its hinges as it forcefully swung open. He pushed Jae-jin under the shower head and turned it on. Cold water poured down from the ceiling, and without hesitation, Eui-woo pulled Jae-jin under the water.
Unexpectedly drenched by the icy cold water, Jae-jin shivered. He reflexively tried to step back, but Eui-woo didn’t let him, gripping Jae-jin’s arm so tightly it felt like it might break.
“You’re the one who started this, Kwon Jae-jin.”
The waterfall of water drenched them both.
Eui-woo stood threateningly under the stream, trapping Jae-jin beneath it, and laughed. His curling lips could only be described as a deranged smile.
“You asked me to trust you. And now, you’re trying to run away?”
Eui-woo made sure every inch of Jae-jin was soaked.
Mixing with impurities, reducing the effectiveness of guiding dramatically.
Even if he touched Jae-jin, guiding would no longer work.
