“The first one is to learn something and become stronger. The first one seems to be successful.”
“Become stronger?”
I quickly answered in response to my father’s provocative gaze that asked if I would aim for my position.
“I don’t want to become a celestial horse just because I want to become stronger. I don’t want to deceive my youth by talking about becoming a celestial horse when my father hasn’t clarified it yet. If I can become the successor and learn the martial arts of the celestial horse, I will be satisfied.”
From my age, it will probably seem lacking to my father for me to become the successor. In fact, my father had already chosen my older brother as the successor in about ten years from now.
I can’t wait for ten years. It’s not enough with a needle in the bag. It’s time to take out the awl from my pocket and stab it here and there.
So I have to receive the Kuhwamagong as soon as possible and achieve greatness. No, I have to reach a higher level than that. Even my father, who has achieved greatness in the ten-staged greatness, was defeated by the Hwamugi, so I have to achieve the twelve-staged greatness.
“Sometimes I imagine. If there is someone I really want to kill while living, how frustrated would it be if I can’t kill that person? Even if it’s because I don’t want to experience that, I want to become stronger.”
Father’s expression did not change, so I couldn’t tell what he was thinking.
“What’s the second reason?”
“I wanted to spend time alone with you, father. It’s the first time, isn’t it?”
Once again, a wry smile formed on father’s lips.
“You have such a cheap sentiment that’s just begging to die.”
“How can it be cheap when I spend time with the greatest man under heaven? If I sing, it’s the greatest song, and if I drink, it’s the greatest drink. Even if I take a shit…”
“That’s enough.”
“Yes! I’ll keep my mouth shut for an hour.”
I met my father’s eyes and smiled happily. It was probably the first time I laughed in front of my father. However, my father turned his head coldly and said.
“When I thought of my father, I didn’t have any memories to call back. Scary memories are not memories, right? I won’t make my memories so desolate this time in this life. Don’t misunderstand, it’s for my sake, not for my father’s sake.”
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