I was in a state where I couldn’t decide what to do about the future, so naturally, my perspective was narrow.
Looking back, Gwon Jae-jin was selfish from beginning to end. All he wanted was for his own desires.
Memory, future, life, Seo Ui-woo.
The life of an ordinary person, the life of a guide, the life of a mutant.
He hadn’t considered Seo Ui-woo’s thoughts at all.
What Seo Ui-woo wanted, his aspirations, his life. None of it, not even a little bit… For that, I was sorry.
From the beginning to the end, it was Gwon Jae-jin who thought alone, concluded alone, and tried to decide alone; that’s what I was sorry for. I should have at least stayed a bit by the second-time Seo Ui-woo’s side. I felt I had drawn the line too much.
Gwon Jae-jin looked directly at Seo Ui-woo with his dark eyes. He wanted to speak right away.
He wanted to open up to Seo Ui-woo about everything that had happened.
“Uh, ugh!”
Gwon Jae-jin bit down on his gag and desperately tried to stand up. The chains tangled with handcuffs tightened. He kicked off the blankets and even tried to shake off Seo Ui-woo’s reach, twisting his waist.
“…Ah.”
Seo Ui-woo let out a deep sigh. He looked up at the ceiling, then lowered his gaze back to Gwon Jae-jin. He felt a surge of anger just by looking at Gwon Jae-jin, who was almost naked and struggling in handcuffs.
“Don’t bother. You’ll get hurt if you move. Do you want your rear to be torn apart until…?”
Seo Ui-woo pressed down on Jae-jin’s thigh with his elbow. Holding down the twitching pelvis, he forcefully inserted a catheter into the narrow urethra. Even if it was a soft silicone tube, it wouldn’t feel casual to stuff it into a tight hole.
“Ah! Ahh, ugh…!”
Gwon Jae-jin didn’t give up. He pulled the handcuffs with trembling arm muscles until red bruises formed on his wrists, convulsively gulping down in his throat, and then, not enough with that, he even banged his head against Seo Ui-woo’s shoulder.
“What, ugh, stay still!”
Seo Ui-woo, furrowing his nose, pushed the catheter all the way in. He inflated the tip to keep it from falling out and taped it to finish the treatment. As soon as he finished, he threw aside the disposable gloves with a disgusted feeling, and brushed through his hair with irritated fingers.
Even after he finished inserting the catheter, Gwon Jae-jin was still thrashing about, kicking the mattress and banging his head against Seo Ui-woo’s forearm in protest. Seo Ui-woo looked at Gwon Jae-jin with an incredulous expression, as if he couldn’t understand him. He grabbed Jae-jin’s wrist to hold him down and pressed on his chest to immobilize him.
“If you keep doing that, you’ll really tear. You have a tube inside you right now! What’s wrong with you!”
“Uh! Whoa! Ah…!”
“I’m not erasing your memory! I said I’m not, why, what’s… Do you hate the catheter? Does it hurt… Shall I remove it?”
Gwon Jae-jin vehemently shook his head. Then, he glared at Seo Ui-woo with bulging eyes. His gaze was desperate, his eyes were contorted with anger, and bloodshot with visible vessels.
“Then what is it… why are you treating me like this again…?”
Gwon Jae-jin repeatedly bit down hard on the gag. The black stick-shaped gag in between his upper and lower jaw was causing him pain. Seo Ui-woo frowned.
“The gag…? You want me to remove the gag?”
“Whoa!”
Gwon Jae-jin nodded vigorously. With a smirk as if incredulous, Seo Ui-woo spoke.
“Alright. Nod your head down.”<br>
Before the sentence was finished, Gwon Jae-jin bowed his head deeply. Seo Ui-woo swallowed a subtle sigh. Strangely, when Gwon Jae-jin resisted, it was bothersome, but when he was compliant, it was relieving.
Seo Ui-woo slowly untied the leather strap that was firmly fixed to Jae-jin’s head. He pushed the belt aside, pulled the loop, and removed the gag. Gwon Jae-jin immediately spat out the stick he’d been biting and moved his stiff jaw.
“It’s you, Seo Ui-woo.”
“…Me?”
“You! The person I dated.”
Once his mouth was free, Gwon Jae-jin effortlessly spilled his thoughts. He couldn’t keep hiding it, and he didn’t want to.
“That means… we were lovers who dated in the future, four years from now. Four years later, I died tangled in a gate incident, and I’ve regressed back to this time, four years prior. That’s why I called you Ui-wooya, asking if you remembered me.”
“……”
“I am Seo Ui-woo’s guide and Seo Ui-woo’s lover.”
“……”
“I’m sorry. I should have told you earlier without hiding it. I just didn’t because it seemed like you wouldn’t believe me.”
“……”
“I did not want to forget you. Please… don’t erase the memory……”
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